Alright well i was talking to my best friend andrew belnap and he told my that my old friend from shanghai steph dizon wants me to update my xanga! so stephy darling! here i am- updating!  this one is just for you!  Alright so i graduated from ISBeijing!  yeaaaauuuh!  so excited! i love beijing it is such an awesome place- i of course feel nostalgia for shanghai...still love that place and consider it one of my homes!  i have been going out every weekend!  saying lots of goodbyes.  i'm going to thailand next saturday but apparently its the rainy season there.....CRAP!  but we already booked the flight.....shikaka.....anyways i dont really mind....then on the 30th i fly to utah to spend some time there...i'm packing up my room right now.  its so depressing!!!!  all my paintings are off the walls....aaahhh...except some...my room feels so bare.  anyways after utah me my mom and sis are going to chicago to find a place for her and her husband chad to live.  chad is doing this thing called "teach for america"  its part of "ameri-corps"  he's going to work in an inner city school for two years as part of a masters program.  i'm so proud of him! its going to be fun.  ryann (my sister) is going to be working at a school too, she's an english teacher.  they both just graduated.  then after that i am going to go back to utah and get ready for uni.  let's see some other random stuff.  i really like the shins...i'm listening to them now.  wait i'll make a list of things that i'm into right now....to name a few

the shins

the strokes

the killers

garden state

a very long engagment

amelie

latin dancing

rings...as in jewelry

indian flats

modest mouse

clothes

LIFE...i love my life.....

at uni i want to do three things...be a nurse, study fashion design and journalism so i can be a fashion editor and do the MDT major at BYU...that stands for music, dance, theatre... oh steph!!! guess what?!  so andrew was telling me about how he saw all you guys in shanghai...and he told me that sarah au and kathermine were talking smack about me!  ahhahah they told drew and his friends that i teased them because they were fat....HAHAHAHA! they are such lame asses...i swear...after......SEVEN freaking years they cant help but linger on something they know i didnt say but are saying i said just to make themselved feel better about their own insecurities....and my friend hugo said when kathermine said i looked like i was addicted to crack...."i wanted to tell her she looked like she was addicted to hamburgers...but i was afraid she would sit on me"  ahahahah....sigh*....i mean they were mean enough in MS...but when that carries over to HS...that's just pathetic...you would think they would mature away from that heirarchical BS of who's cooler than who.  ANYWAYS...enough of that.  this year as a whole has been a pretty good one.  i cant beleive we are actually done!  anyways steph i better get going! i hope you enjoyed this little update!  you are so beautiful!  i loved the pictures from your debutante (spelling?!) ball!  GORGEOUS!  but then again you always have been!  oh did i tell you that i was Ti Moune again on Once on this island?!?!?!? we did it in HS...of course NOT the JR. verison...it was pretty cool!  alright i love you lots babe!  MUAH!  you can email me at samantha_dickens@hotmail.com 

i cant wait till xmas break! yay!  i can't wait to see my family and my new house! it's up in the mountains and surrounded by million dollar homes...its like the only one that isnt a million dollars...but there is going to be snow and sigh* it's just going to be beautiful!  aaaand...my sister just finished her student teaching..so she's done with college and doesnt have a job at the moment so i will be spending mucho time with her! oh yeah...and two of my friends are getting married this xmas....my friend brooke, she's 19.....and clara's bro's fiance is my friend too but shes like 24 or so...so that's not crazy young like all the others ...and then my 20 year old cousin just had a baby and my 18 year old friend is pregnant (after she got married of course)....and then another friend of mine is going to be getting engaged any day now....my dad asked me the other day if i was starting to feel like an old maid......apparently in utah i am....JEEZ....

ahahaha...i just realised that my site must be really boring...since i dont put any pictures on it.....teehee...too lazy and anyways....i dont know how to and everyone is always complaining about photo bucket...

what am i doing?! i should really be studying for finals.....ahh....but i cannot! i just found out that a few people that i dont really know are subscribed to my site.....hmm....that kind of puts the pressure on me to 'perform' to the best of my ability...but after thinking about it for a while....i have decided against it....

nicoles party this weekend.......not too fun...but that's just my opinion....i dont drink so i can see why it wouldnt be very fun...and for those of you who saw me taking a shot....it was a WATER SHOT...not really real....i'm not stupid enough to get pissed in front of a bunch of people i dont know....i think the reason why no one ever hears of me doing "stuff" is because i never do it front of anyone that would spread it..or tell anyone i wouldnt trust.....but jeez stevie said today that i was perfect.....not true! not true!  i've done some bad stuff....ok...not really...but i'm not as prude as everyone thinks...... ahahaha...ok maybe i am minus some frigidity....whatever...i'm happy with myself and that's good enough for me...

my micheleleleleeee comes on the 16th and i am extremely excited about that!  i leave on the 17th though....but i leave around 9pm....so i will pick her up from the airport and then we will be going out thursday night...and then spend the rest of friday together....and then i will leave and not see her till summer....ahh...that sucks...

oh and also about the party....a certain guy...from aus. named peter...(hahah i know you have a subscription to my site so you will be getting this!) didnt see me sitting beneath matt (frenchie)...understandable...and in an attempt to grap his should or neck or something like that....he grabbed my forehead and eye...and left a two finger imprint of my forehead....i tried to show tom the welt but all he said was...."whats a welt?".....uuummmmmm....nevermind.... he feels bad about it though and told me it was the first thing he rememberd when he woke up... so i accept his apology and besides he kissed it better .....

alright alright....i know it's been a while...i guess that obsession that so many people at our school have with xanga didnt transfer to me....but i can't help it! why would i want to bear my heart and soul to anyone who is just passing through?  i mean for the last....45min i have been looking through other people's sites and there is all this cliche, corny , trite crap about how their hearts are broken or how much their lives suck....blah blah.....its like xanga is a place where all the attention whores can moan and groan and where people with severe obsessions can put a page worth of pictures of some freaky guy with eyeliner and satanic music playing (how do you do that by the way? the music thing that is)....HOWEVER..i am not saying that all people with xanga are like this...or i would be a hypocrite...people such as clara and luis (and i'm sure a bunch of other people i just needed a couple examples...) they have very tasteful sites....and then there are some people who spend too much time on their sites...like constantly adding new skins or re-designing their sites....i mean picture updates are understandable......anyways....

lets see what is going on?  oh yeah....i do have to complain about guys.....just for a second.....they are sooo stupid.....the thing with being a senior is you start liking younger guys because there are no older guys for you to like...like when i was in 9th and 10th grade....so you are stuck with these horny little 16 year olds.....and you figure they might be....normal....but nope....they're horny...all of them....shame on me for expecting anything other than them to be.....you guys out there know i'm right....i just cant wait till university.....

hahaha...alright...so this guy named Pat Gunn wrote me a comment and said...."Hi, my name is Pat Gunn you dont know me but i know you....i think i am in love with you....MARRY ME!"....so i tried going to his site and it said that he had broken some "xanga agreement".....ummmm....i wonder what that was...but either way i guess it's all for the best i didnt end up going to his site....FREAKY!  oh...and Pat if you see this comment....ignore all the comments about you and how weird i think you are....i dont really mean these cruel cruel words...please don't stalk me! 

wow!  thanks for the comments everyone...oh and jasper you know i can never have my eye on one guy for too long...i'm too fickle....gotta switch it around everyonce and a while.....haha! you know what i mean....

alright let's see what has been going on in my life....nothing of interest...truly....

its october break right now!  wooo hooo! and tomorrow i am getting my hair done back to my natural colour!  brown! no more blond for me!!  yesssss!!!  

ok..well i'm gonna go now...i dont know what else to say...you guys need to tell me what to write about....give me some topics or something!